2021.12.07 16:01 SinifedPrime So, If i already have a legends acc and I make another one on the same google acc... Would i have to delete the game and click Start New Game, and would i have my other acc still?
2021.12.07 16:01 Parkiller4727 Any good Deathguard Terrain stls?
2021.12.07 16:01 Achintha1997 My mom ignore me , any advice ?
2021.12.07 16:01 give_me_your_bobux I made a Dantdm Cat fanart but its a Cool x Christmas Cold. Hope you like it. I made it on Krita if you are wondering.
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2021.12.07 16:01 sharewithme Word of The Hour: লিখি
2021.12.07 16:01 Herosofolympus Why didn't the bishops swim up after the Saturday music video
2021.12.07 16:01 Avitha101 You can't escape
2021.12.07 16:01 cold_hoe 158 Spectre games vs 140 WK games
2021.12.07 16:01 wezeir27 Anushka Sharma
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2021.12.07 16:01 sonureal I resigned after my boss started micromanaging me and picking on me.
Nothing special here. Just the usual.
Been at the company for 2.5 years. No promotion. No appreciation. Manager changed midway. New manager doesn't even know I am still working as L1. And when I tell ask him about it, tells me let's see in the next promotion cycle ( asked 4 months back, promo cycle is due in next 4 months). And voila, suddenly boss has a problem with the work that I do. Which he never had for the last entire year (Jan). Gaslights me why I took x hours for a task (in front of the entire team), even though we have an unspoken rule on the team, that X hours is minimum for any task item. Felt very bad. All my colleagues tell me I do a crazy good job and definitely deserved a promotion last year itself, so decided to wait. And now, out of the blue, he literally degrades and mentions in my task for next cycle, this task takes maximum y hours for a 'L1 employee'. And then I lost it. I have worked without weekends off for certain projects. And considering his ill-treatment I doubt he has any good reviews intended for my upcoming cycle. And thus I decided, to quit. I just felt bad it turned out so at my first job. :-/
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2021.12.07 16:01 sco-go Long - Compelled to Share - Mental Health (BP/Depression/Anxiety), Alcoholism/Addiction, Disability
I'll try to keep this as brief as possible, but there's a lot to be said & I have not & will not have a chance to share these things with anyone else. So here ya go Reddit.
X-posting in StopDrinking because this is dual diagnosis.
Bipolar I, Major Depression, Alcoholism/Addiction, etc.
My lawyer told me yesterday that my Disability claim was denied & that it could be appealed in 8-18mos. This month marks 18mos since filing.
I don't know if this is grandiose thinking, but I really wanted to make it. I've been so desperate to talk to someone (therapy) & get on a medication regiment (psychiatrist) that I've been rehearsing (fantasizing about) these conversations over-and-over-and-over in my head for hours, daily, for months. I fantasize about being "normal." A normal, stable person.
I was diagnosed BP I ~14yrs ago (depression runs in the family) & I am a monster alcoholic (alcoholism runs in the family). I have to say that I'm an addict too because I was hopelessly addicted to my prescription anti-anxiety medication. I've seen several psychiatrists & therapists, & have been on dozens of different medications over the years, several psychiatric units, dual diagnosis clinics (rehabs), alternate psychiatric treatment, etc.
I have about a 1 1/2 years 100% sober from all substances. First time ever 100% all substances. I used to think that anxiety meds that I took over the years really helped with my anxiety because when I would miss doses, I would really "feel" it. Turns out I was physically addicted to Clonazepam/Ativan. This last dose of Ativan I was on was 8mg per day. Yes, 8mg per day.
I've had years of intermittent sustained sobriety from alcohol: a year here, 1.5yrs there, 2yrs, 5yrs. I thought I had experienced my moment of clarity, but I didn't. I did a year ago & it was/is so painful, I don't know what to do with it.
I started having some "issues" in 2019 & discussed medications w/ my psychiatrist. I felt like the Lithium stopped doing its job. Started trying other mood stabilizers. My behavior was very, very erratic, extreme narcissism. Basically, I was just a big piece of shit. I've always been very confident & outgoing person, but this was a different level & I realized it. Turns out I was manic for a long time. Had employment issues, now I didn't have insurance, now I'm self-medicating. The spiral was fast & hard this time.
I stopped taking the Ativan 06/2020. I discussed getting off Benzos w/ my psych before & the way you detox from pretty much anything (alcohol and/or other benzos) is with benzos (Librium). I failed to get off benzos twice before because of the long withdrawal periods. Physical withdrawals lasted about 4weeks, but once I hit the 6mos mark it was like someone turned on a light switch.
This was very overwhelming. I began seeing myself through the eyes of others, how they felt, my past behaviors & actions. I don't know how to really describe this, but if ever there was a time when I was more suicidal than I am today, it was 10x at the beginning of 2021. I'm not suicidal (yet), I just think about it basically all day & night. That in itself is very overwhelming, sad, & scary.
Trying to keep this short. If I start expanding on this then I'll have written a novel.
My uncle put a shotgun in his mouth when he was 36 (I was 17). When the "lights turned on" I immediately felt how he felt before he took his life. I understood. It was very weird. He suffered from major depression/alcoholism also. We are one in the same. My other uncle (his brother), also major alcoholism/depression, got close to killing himself, but things got sorted out & he got on disability & has been doing better (has remained sober).
Without the help from my parents, I'd probably already be dead, or at least homeless. They are saints especially for what I've put them through. I have nothing. I have less than nothing. I've been below zero for well over 18mos now. Hope that my Disability would be approved, that I'd get to see doctors (therapist/psychiatrist/dentist), get on meds, & get some kind of stability back in my life that I'd make it. But now that door has closed & I realized that's it. Game over. I failed at life.
I'm not going to kill myself today because it's still very, very scary. Little by little though I'm becoming more and more numb to it. For some reason I still have a little hope, like "yeah, you're going to make it." I'll keep that for now, but I'm tired.
Going from someone who was very social, outgoing, confident, etc. to someone who hasn't left his parents' house (barely my bedroom) in the last 18mos, I don't know where to go or what to do from here. My social anxiety has become absurd. It's like my mental health deteriorated into oblivion in the last 2yrs. I literally don't know who I am. I have no image of myself. I don't know what other people see when they see me. I realized I have no life experiences. I haven't experienced anything. Even the years of sobriety from alcohol, I was still taking the benzos. It's very overwhelming & sad.
Like I said, I have below nothing: I own nothing of value, this year I was sued by three creditors, my son's mother is suing me, Disability was denied, the good days are FAR outnumbered by the bad, I can't remember the last time I got more than 2hours of solid sleep.
The only reason I am still here, the only reason I am so scared of death is because of my 7yr old son. He is with me most weekends & we have a great time. When he was around & I wanted to drink, I would tell myself "he doesn't deserve that." I had enough mental capacity to know that my drinking was so bad that I didn't want him to witness it. That's weird. But now it's the same thing with my depression/anxiety: he doesn't deserve that. I don't want him to see it. There's a lot of shame, guilt, & remorse that I'm carrying around.
I feel absolutely nothing. Zero emotion. No empathy. Complete complacency mixed with overwhelming anxiety/depression. I'm scared to leave the house. I'm literally fearful of other people (interacting with). I haven't had a real conversation with another adult human being in about 2yrs. I don't like to use this word, but I feel like a retarded person.
My son is the only reason I've tried to "make it," but as he gets older he'll begin to see. And I don't want that.
There is so much to say. I have been so desperate to talk to someone about everything. All these revelations. Things keep coming back to me & I don't want to do it. I desperately don't want to leave my son, but I am so tired & at least he'd get the death benefit.
The SSA had me see a psychologist about a year ago for the disability. I was so excited to get to talk to someone. I actually thought this person was going to help me. Turns out I had about 20min to tell him family history & my entire adult life so he could send his decision to Social Security. Unfortunately, I have the ability to repeat 3 numbers, knew who was President, knew what year it was, knew which State I lived in, so I got moderate to marked.
Judge denied my Disability due to lack of evidence. I supplied them with dozens of places & doctors to get medical records from going back 19yrs.
I understand the job of these "judges" is to deny claims so that monies don't have to be paid. That's why it takes so long to do anything. My cousin was diagnosed with a cancer that had already spread to several organs (this was 2yrs ago). They "fast tracked" her disability. It was never approved & she died 10mos later. I understand they want you to die. I don't know how my Uncle got on disability because he had never seen a doctor for his depression.
Do Disability Lawyers even do anything? Mine actually did nothing. The responses I received over the year I retained them was wait, wait longer, wait, wait. Then the hearing comes & my lawyer was on the call. He didn't ask me any additional questions or ask for clarification. Nothing. He actually did nothing. Yesterday he tells me "appeal in 18mos." Yeah, OK. Good luck reaching me in 18mos.
I made it this far by lying to myself - by telling myself "just a little bit longer, just a little bit longer, you'll get to talk to someone & get medication, just a little bit longer." Well, that doesn't work anymore, because it's over & at this exact moment I am completely numb.
I don't want to do what I know I have to do. For right now the thought of actually doing it is terrifying & crippling, but occasionally I don't have those feelings. That's when it gets really, really scary.
I wish things were different. I wish I succeeded in life. I realized one of the reasons I drank was because I didn't like reality, I didn't like myself. I don't like myself. The benzos also helped keep me from seeing myself & feeling anything meaningful.
There is so much to unpack, so much to say. This what I've typed here is nothing. It doesn't even scratch the surface. All I wanted was to talk to someone, get back on medication, & make it. That psychologist even wrote down I'd probably be OK if I received therapy & medication. I guess now I just wait for the hope to completely dissipate & for certain fears to lift.
I will probably delete this within 24hrs. That's just what I do. This is the first time I've shared these things with anyone.
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2021.12.07 16:01 Arandomweirdo12 This is a shit post
2021.12.07 16:01 TalkingCorpse Hello! I need and ID for these mites or flies(?) thingies on my avocado tree. Mexico City, Mexico. Are these a threat for my tree? Thanks in advance!!
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2021.12.07 16:01 Leblo cat pee question
hi, im not sure if this is the place to ask, so please guide me.
my cat was sedated and i put him on the bed after he came back and he was very groggy. i thought it would help relax him. unfortunately he unknowingly peed on the bed, which is a memory foam mattress. the pee has seeped through but my wife quickly tried to clean it and went through it twice, but the smell didnt go. i also got professionals to steam clean my mattress but the smell is still there. any advice on how to get the smell out?
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2021.12.07 16:01 johnrock001 Anime Girl Names - Top Anime Girl Names With Meaning List
2021.12.07 16:01 MakeupandDoggos Anyone else disappointed in the Cocktail Hour chocolate truffle advent calendar?
2021.12.07 16:01 limitedkp This is the last step, fiat ramps incoming
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2021.12.07 16:01 rbmk36yt234 Here is a post from me because I don't post that much lol
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2021.12.07 16:01 DandyBeyond He is...The Harp-pissed.
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2021.12.07 16:01 sharewithme Word of The Hour: escribe
2021.12.07 16:01 LordDevilman13 Defend It! | Final Fantasy XIII | The Completionist
2021.12.07 16:01 grannne did i overdo it? absolutely. was it worth it? yes
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2021.12.07 16:01 PeeJHD Is it?
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2021.12.07 16:01 alienbrain13 I want to pop them so bad
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2021.12.07 16:01 BeleibterMondkuchen Hmmm?
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